magichairbrush: (desperate)
Rapunzel Gothel ([personal profile] magichairbrush) wrote2011-11-19 08:49 am

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I don't want to go home for holiday break. I'd much rather stay at Hogwarts. It's not very fun at home, and mother makes me uncomfortable sometimes.

She says some really mean things, especially to my friends during my birthday. And to me, as well. It doesn't seem like the sort of thing a mother should do.

But she does love me. She's always telling me that. It makes me feel like an awful daughter that I don't want to go home to her, but at the same time, I'm starting to wonder if the trouble isn't with me.

[identity profile] whoeverlooks.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
But what if she can tell? My parents can always tell when I'm not happy and they try to cheer me up. What about your mother?

[identity profile] magichairbrush.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
She does sometimes. She'll make me my favorite soup when I'm sad.

But not when I'm sad because of her. Then she doesn't notice.

[identity profile] whoeverlooks.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 09:41 pm (UTC)(link)
...You know what I think, Rapunzel?

I think she does and she wants it to stay that way. You get so guilty about how she's gonna feel about something a lot, I think that's how she wants you to feel. She's bullying you!

[identity profile] magichairbrush.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Sometimes it feels that way, but I don't know!

[identity profile] whoeverlooks.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, you can't just sit around not knowing. She's not going to make it clear to you that she's being a bully, you've gotta start taking some independent action and coming out from under her watch. That's what I did with my parents and I don't regret it one bit.

[identity profile] magichairbrush.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 09:54 pm (UTC)(link)
But Xion! Xion, she has to be protective. My hair!

[identity profile] magichairbrush.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)
It... It can heal injuries. And Mother makes a potion from it to make her look younger.

1/2

[identity profile] whoeverlooks.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
WOW REALLY??? OH MY GOSH YOUR HAIR'S SO BEAUTIFUL OF COURSE IT HAD SOMETHING REALLY SPECIAL ABOUT IT!!!!!

[identity profile] whoeverlooks.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
................um

but if she's just protecting you for your hair so she can stay younger...that's using you. My dad tells me to avoid people like that.

[identity profile] magichairbrush.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Really! And thank you, I'm glad you like it!

Oh, but I'm not supposed to tell anyone! So... Don't tell, okay?

[Inkblots.]

But she's my Mother. Mothers don't do that, do they? She has to at least love me, right?

[identity profile] whoeverlooks.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
...Not everyone that is a mother is nice. I know I complain about my parents, but some people hit their kids or starve them. And you said she says some really mean things sometimes, right?

I think your mother is not a very nice lady at all.

[identity profile] magichairbrush.livejournal.com 2011-11-20 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
That's true. I wasn't thinking of it like that, because even though she's really mean sometimes she's never hurt me physically...

Do you really think that, Xion?

[identity profile] whoeverlooks.livejournal.com 2011-11-21 12:17 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. And I want to get you away from her, I think a lot of people do.

[identity profile] whoeverlooks.livejournal.com 2011-11-21 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
I end up reading a lot of books at home...my favorite ones have knights saving princesses from evil witches, so I like to think it'd be something like that.

[identity profile] magichairbrush.livejournal.com 2011-11-21 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
Reading is a wonderful way to pass the time, isn't it?

[Inkblots...]

This is a lot to think about, though.

But I'm going to try, Xion. To stand up to her more.